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whoots~

Saturday, June 30, 2007

went to the library to study with cindy/ashley/siti.
we had like ALOT of time to study=.=
was distracted but still cramped in some stuff.
went for macs then back for more cramming.
studied more outside the LT/exam venue.
it was free sitting and we sat at the side.
the mcq was alright i guess.
sectione b got tougher.
but it was alright.i think.LOL!
section c had to choose 3 out of 4.
big headache cause i can't do like all the parts=.=
stayed till 6 though could leave earlier.
rushed off to tao payoh.
opened the door and was shocked by the massive space taken up.
wasn't much to do cause there were so many part-timers.
tomorrow's so exciting:D

~~and there as i suspected would happen.the anger somehow disappeared after seeing you today.i'm tired.really tired of constant giving.when's my turn to be on the other end.God its not fair.~~

1 more day!!!

Friday, June 29, 2007

woken up by many causes=.=

mother/alarm/'ster calling

started really studying.

sat on the stupid wooden chair for so long.

after effect:butt pain=.=

but the point is i covered like 4 chapters!

the most i covered in a day:D

i'm so proud of myself.

really hope all this mugging pays off.

i managed to talk to cindy!:D

cell's cancelled:leader's retreat.

oh wellies~

its the end of the week!:D

some things just got to be learned the hard way.

hmmm...

~~gues what.now i'm begining to hate you.i'm handing it all to God.i'm going to learn to let all this go.yeah it'll take time but i'm going to trust HIM.~~

2 more days~

Thursday, June 28, 2007

woke up earlier.

made up for not studying yesterday.

went to meet 'ster at pasir ris library.

guess what there wasn't plug!=.=

shifted to the foodcourt.

battery died quite fast.

did like 1 chapter of notes.

shall study through the night.

i'm very determined!

now my stomach feels funny=.=

tomorrow is 'drilling' day=.=

with the end goal in mind i'll fight on:D

i miss my butterscotch ice-cream):

i'm a hug addict:D

hug[s] anyone?LOL!

i'm suddenly tired.

veryveryvery tired=.=

~~you seem alright.good for you.unfortunately you're always on my mind.know what.i'm beginning to hate you.all the things i did to help.feel so dumb.why bother.~~

3 more days:D

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

returned library book that i didn't even read=.=
went to amk library with cindy to study.
apparently ashley was asked along.
went to meet personnel.
went to sakae for buffet.
ate like so much=.=
walked around and talked alot.
went to gelare for dessert.
ahhh.
3 more days to CT.
GD=Going to Die?
i'm starting to feel the stress=.=
feel like my brain's going to breakdown.
at the same time its also 3 days to yc.
ahhhh the contradiction here.
i'm getting confused=x
maybe meeting 'ster to study tomorrow.
shan't put too much hope.
oh wells...
seems like everyone around me is feeling it.
don't worry cause i'm always here for you guys!:D
hugs are really addictive.
i need one now.anyone?HAHA!

~~the pain.so much pain.i feel so much.sometimes wish i was oblivious.oblivious=bliss?hmmm.~~

yuppie~

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

woke up considerably early.

started studying.

slack then went back to studying.

the cycle repeated quite a few times.

but the point is i studied!

but then now i really need to buck up.

shall attempt finish reading the whole thing by tomorrow.

so can start memorising the important points:D

ahhh.

4 more days so jia you!

and zy just told me his friend's definition of nyp.

Not Yet Pass=.=

thanks alot?

got to go return that stupid library book.

can't wait for study date with dearest:D

but she cancelled on me[for tomorrow also]):

meeting cindy in school to return book.

going to amk library to study.

and do my laptop.LOL!

the above picture's for zy.

please take care and persevere!

anyways found out who's 1 of my taggers.

'a friend' who are you~*annoyed*=.=

~~though listening to emo song makes me even more emo i continue.i'm still worried.are you alright.just can't bring myself to ask.take care.praying for you.~~

yayeee~

Monday, June 25, 2007

was early for cell.
big cell again!:D
service was funny:D
went for lunch at white sands.
stopped for bubble tea.
slacked around at foodcourt.
split up after that.
came home then left after awhile.
went to meet zhengyi.
walked around to find the place.
went to meet janel and her sis[sorry can't spell her name].
went to visit her mum.
went with janel and her sis for dinner.
cabbed home with zy.
found out that there's no school tomorrow afterall:D
audrey's GOING to concentrate and study hard for CT!
yc in less than a week!:D

~~the heartbreak.the pain.why.take care.i'm really worried for you.do you know.do you care.guess not.~~

sian...

Sunday, June 24, 2007

kinda just slacked around.
tried studying.
super not productive as usual.
just found out that monday is school as usual.
library book expires on wednesday.
have GD book to carry also on wednesday.
perhaps shall return on tuesday[lighter bag:D].
CT for GD on friday.
i'm so not ready.
anyway!
can't wait for yc next week:D
but its like 200+ kids=.=
oh wells.
date with dearest to go study:D

~~i'm tired.keep giving and giving.stop coming to me only when you need help.how much does it matter to you i wonder.~~

billy bombers!:D

Saturday, June 23, 2007

met dad at his work place.
went to pick grandma up.
waited for so long=.=
went home and started calling like 20 people=.=
napped abit then started studying.
went to meet the rest.
saw wee kiat and decided to go book the seats.
got lost and end up no seats.
changed to billy bombers.
booked seats left the cake and went window shopping.
went back to seat and pretended not to notice anything.
wished kenneth happy birthday and started ordering.
we took like 1hr to eat=.=
cake came and he had to eat 1/4[small la!LOL] without utensils!:D
then wee kiat and calvin went to smash the cake into his face.
the staff gave us the can and stuff to mix.SABO!:D
i didn't shake properly so the top part flew and contents spilled.
vanessa screamed[before was cause i hit her sunburn].
he finished the whole cup in 1 gulp.*respect!*
took like so many pictures!:D
wee kiat and calvin were so funny!LOL.
paid and some of us left while others went for movie.
but they came from the back and shocked us.
vanessa screamed again freaking me out=.=
bumped into jocelyn.
anways today was really fun:D
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KENNETH & JOCELYN!

~~sorry that i'm the one to break it to you.don't know why but it felt so painful.know that you're not alone.take care.~~

janel's place...

Friday, June 22, 2007

went over to janel's house.
tried to study=.=
had lunch.
studyyy...
more like she play then i study/help her=.=
conclusion:we can't study at her house.
felt so pampered by her mum=.=
grandma's coming home tomorrow:D
i'm amused by what a simple post can do.
though the blog is like yours but its still public.
never know who reads it.
but its still nice to see people tagging.
and also know that they care:D
anyway.
sometimes its better to say it then to keep it?
those who don't say anything are the ones you should really care for.
so yeah.
take care one and all!:D
lovelovelove:D

~~wishing i could just throw it all away.to fall.hook.line.sinker.~~

annoyed...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

tried studying.
made abit of progress.LOL.
going to janel's house tomorrow to study:D
started downloading adobe illustrator thingy.
i'm obsessed with hugs&food!:D
met the rest for dinner.
went for prayer meeting.
things just kept going wrong after i got home=.=
accidentally unplugged a lose cable thus computer off.
downloaded like 60% already!
it takes 15hrs to download that software!=.=
spilled soup.
turned the wrong faucet[shower head] thus got wet.
oh my goodness=.=
realized that my previous post attracted attention.
i would still like to know your name please...[a friend/erm]
anyway regarding my post.
know that i was just emo-ing and thinking alot.
for now my love is only for God/my friends and his people/community:D
i love you alot.really.
for some reason i just felt like typing this.
for anyone who needed to hear that.
yuppieyups:D
to all studying:jia you!:D

~~yet again its back.seemingly like knots that just can't be untangled.feel like i have so much in me.i just want to give it all away.some will do also.~~

L.O.V.E

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

sleep is good:D
slacked around at home.
must really start studying soon=.=
prayer meeting tomorrow:D
hmmm.
what is love to you.
shawn asked me that.
it just suddenly came back to me and got me thinking.
also asked others what it meant to them.
lacking of vast expressions.
unconditional.
a choice.
and there were others.
i don't know if i know what is love.
seems like i do but then again.
its like i just can't word it?
a feeling created by God.
so sweet.so wonderful.so good.
its definition varies with different people.
then there's the part where i'm emo.
perhaps i really don't know whats love afterall.

~~to be so easily swayed.really wish at times i could really cut my heart out and hide it somewhere.never to be found again.then again i still hope...~~

sentosa outing...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

left house too early so yeah=.=
there were 10 of us altogether.
took the tram over.
1st time so quite interesting.
went to siloso beach:D
put down our stuff on mats thanks to siti for the mat.
went to the lower part of the beach.
took pictures:D
rest went to play volleyball.
aisyah/yanshan/me walked to the other end.
took pictures along the way:D
girls went for ice cream/burger/drinks after we got back:D
took photos:D
with the coconut tree/siloso sign on the sand dune etc.
played volleyball/captains ball/soccer/monkey.
went to take skyride/luge.
took the family package.
cindy had to pretend to be 12 if not can't qualify=.=
super freaked out on the skyride.
luge was fun like the last tim i took it:D
took more photos.
went back to get our stuff.
left with aisyah first.
not really tan but maybe a bit?
oh wells:D
can catch up on sleep tonight:D
suddenly miss everyone so much):
oh wells!

~~in confusion once again.and this time its for no reason.~~

unexpected...

Monday, June 18, 2007

wasn't that early for cell.
learned something.
heels are bad:blisters):
cell was so quiet=.=
went for ushering.
got to wear my flats:D
did highlife side again:D
went for lunch at dte.
then parted ways.
came home saw my father.
decided to take a nap then went to aunty's place.
brought laptop along=heavy bag.
went to pick up sis at ntu.
class outing to sentosa tomorrow.
got to studyyy~

~~just tell me.i don't want to guess.talk to me.guide me Lord.take control over my life.~~

post VSD...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

friday
talked about spiritual giftings for VSD.
my giftings are...=.=
but i like the topic:D
went for planetshakers.
it was at expo super hot but expected.
the whole thing was...
talked to dearest:D
went for dinner at bedok inter.
curry chicken noodle stall closed on shawn=.=
proceeded to macs.
bumped into hj on bus seventeen.

today
last day of VSD.
learned some of the stuff at fishers of man before.
had a mini cell time.
prayed for each other.
leaders prayed for us.
presented cert and book.
went for megalife with amanda.
sat at vs cell there.
left earlier so reached home earlier.
and so the whole week seemed to have flown past.
got to start studying soon!
oh wells!
tomorrow's sunday:D

~~think i've already started moving on.good eh.but now its yet another.not even sure.maybe its just me.hmmm...~~

till next time...

Thursday, June 14, 2007

another yc has come and gone.
this batch was a great test of everyone's patience but we made it:D
now's the start of all the muscle aches.
have to kinda limp so please have mercy on me.
was early for VSD:D
today's was not bad.lol.
shall sleep earlier tonight to be more awake:D
came home early.
so long since i last did=.=
tomorrow's planetshaker's concert.
wheee~!
i miss eu/yc already.
the assists.
the dancing.
the hugs.
the crazy fun we have.
the bowling sessions.
the everything.
it'll be another one and a half weeks till the next):
oh wells.
everyday past would be a day closer:D

~~look inside you and be strong.then you'll see a hero inside you...~~

battery low...

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

monday
caught up on sleep:D
game-d o laptop:D
left for toa payoh.
shouldn't have went cause got to leave in 1hrs+ time?=.=
reached tm chao early=.=
went with vanessa to optician and no she doesn't have infection=.=
went to meet the rest and proceeded to kfc.
left for shawn's place.
his cooking quite good:D
watched like only 2 movies then zhao-ed=.=
lemony snicket's:a series of unfortunate events/flight plan
got a lift home from amanda's dad:D

tuesday
woke up super early then was so awake=.=
was the first one there:D
biggest yc group and a big handful.
great test of my patience.
i'm losing my voice so will like zhao xia again la!=.=
train-ed with ju/baoyi/weikai.
shall attempt chiong-ing back after VSD tomorrow:D
breakfast with amanda:D

finally...

Monday, June 11, 2007

was early for cell:D
worship was so...
end up like kenneth leading instead=.=
never led worship with guitar before so abit funny=.=
word was good:D
was super tired during service=.=
went for lunch.
home to change and napped:D
overslept but others were even later.HAHA!
thought at city hall so overshot=.=
ate at mos burger for the 1st time.HAHA!
food not bad but the burger so small=.=
went for the wake.
helped out.
had a small service then at around talking.
tran-ed with nat/amanda/joshua/wee kiat/jiang liang.
wee kiat should really stop it with te thambi and co thing=.=
[is that howyou spell thambi?HEH!]
coming week super packed=.=
tomorrow:movie marathon/assisting.
leaving earlier and chiong down to movie marathon.
tuesday:assisting.
sure very tired so shan't attempt to bring laptop.
wednesday-friday:VSD[VAcational School of Discipleship]
feeling wouldn't have time to do homework.
but maybe shall bring laptop.
should name:DHAHA!

to my dearest natalie
not sure whether you'll see this/when you'll see this but yeah.cheer up k.don't think so much.don't be like m.cannot emo k!and yeah we'll walk through this together.and support each other:DLOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY~!!!:D

wheee~!:D

Sunday, June 10, 2007

caught up on sleep:D
went for service.
didn't feel like but had a feeling i should.
intention was to collect the thing[s] from janel.
apparently!
she thought i wasn't going since i told her that the day before=.=
made a wasted trip=.=
sermon was okie.
sp vincent was chao funny la.LOL!
emo.nemo.LOL.
had to go home alone since rachel went for cell=.=
cell leader called.
where are you.i want to ask you for a favour.can you lead worship tomorrow?
really want to strangle him la!=.=
i'm so not prepared.
haven't led worship for so long.
number of times i did it can be counted with 1 hand=.=
i'm not going to be late for cell tomorrow!
love sundays!:DDD

~~to laugh or to cry.just feel like doing both.thought i finally could get out of it and yet whatever you do still affects me so much.why.so tired.~~

holiday here i come!:DDD

Saturday, June 09, 2007

was alright at GD:D
break for super long.
kou fu then library as usual.HAHA!
DE was super short.
set up a practise circuit only:D
went to wait for dad at city hall.
amanda came and pei-ed me:D
she left then me and dad went to do the laptop stuff.
can't do cause need something from the laptop=.=
a cockroach brushed past my leg as it flew past.EEKS!
went to funan but also can't get anything.
dad gave me a treat:D
left everything at home.
met at city hall and went for sherron's father's wake.
don't like wakes.emoemoemo=.=
maybe going for megalife tomorrow.heehee.

~~the pain.it came all at once.catching me off-guard.threatening to be realeased.i don't know anything anymore.i don't want to hurt others.let the pain remain on me.what if i just ran away silently...~~

1 more day...

Friday, June 08, 2007

lab test in the morning was bad=.=
had error so can't even debug till teacher edit 1 of the 2 lines=.=
cleared the other line and realize no mistake but too late=.=
no tutorial so went to kou fu.
went to library to slack.
found out lecture kena postponed=.=
called mummy and went to meet her at orchard.
walked around and decided to proceed to bugis.
waited for 7 and didn't realize it won't stop there=.=
to mummy:do you have clips?
took train to bugis after realizing and that was after like 5 7s going past la!
went to bugis street to continue shopping.
bought like so many stuff and bag was chao heavy=.=
was about to leave then realized it was raining=.=
went to look for present with mummy.
helped her pick and it was so troublesome=.=
anyways!
today was good eh mummy:D
journey home was super tired.
fan officially broke down after so long.
going to collect stuff for my laptop tomorrow=.=
so excited that holidays are coming!:D

~~to know or not to know is a matter of preference and yet it doesn't matter now.or does it.~~

2 more days...

Thursday, June 07, 2007

overslept by like 1 hour.
this time i didn't even set the wrong alarm.
result=$13 on cab fare)'=
was super early so waited for te rest at atrium.
lecture was spent chiong-ing homework=.=
found out that we would need laptop next semester onwards or something like that.
so it was rather wise of me to get it during the PC show wasn't it:D
GD and lunch was spent mostly on studying=.=
was super stressed ~~and super not prepared~~ before the test.
test was bad la=.=
walked around then went to kou fu.
went for PMP equiz.
was good thank God man:D
did abit of revision stuff.
went for talk on choosing elective.
went back to continue more on PMP stuff till 1800=.=
going out with mummy tomorrow:D
can't wait:D
i love you many many mummy!:D

i'm really trying and trying.so tired.really don't wish to see you.yet i saw you today.and that phone call.mixed feelings bombarded my mind.really tired to be on this emotional roller coaster.i really need to get off.really wish someone would just pull me off.as i sit there looking through the window thinking back to when all this didn't exist i just want to wish it all away...

3 more days...

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

went to school for nothing la=.=
all the lectures were cancelled.
except have to access CMS to check out the Java thingy=.=
got home chao early.
itchy hand went to off laptop's wireless now its lost):
sis treated to mcdelivery:D
slacked around.
feel so lazy to do anything.
totally no mood to study for tomorrow's tests at all.
just feel super sian=.=
supposed to go pick janel up but decided to study.
and yet here i am...=.=
leaders camp is over:D
mummy's back:D
anyways!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM SHU-YI MY DEAREST COUSIN!
you're like in london and i doubt you'll read this but yeah.
may you have a good year etc etc etc.
ahhh fill in what you want!HAHA!

coincidentally today also marks the exact 1 year i got my phone.
so its one more year till a new phone.HAHA!

somehow i felt the pain when i look at you and yet i miss you.i'm so tired.the pain's getting to me.i just want to break out of this whole thing.somehow i just seem to be getting further and further away from my goal.i just want to draw back into Your arms Father Lord where any problem would just seem so small.

4 more days!!!

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

everyone was late.
so me and yanshan just walked to school.
lab was okie.
PD was dumb la=.=
was late cause was fixing the 'contraption'=.=
egg cracked=.=
expected cause wasn't well-prepared anyway.
was totally stoned out at lecture as usual=.=
lab was slack as we could do anything.
completed and sent CCT project.
went home alone cause 'ster ended early=.=
2 tests on wednesday=.=
1 open book[IT1845] and 1 not[IT1843].
laptop's wireless's working:D

~~i just found what wanted and yet i lost it all over again.~~

emo season...

Monday, June 04, 2007

set alarm wrongly so woke up late=.=
cabbed down and reached.
cell had already started.
cell was exceptionally small today=.=
service was alright.
chye aik's 1st year.
went for lunch at white sands.
chionged to IT fair.
jammed like don't know what=.=
finally found 'ster/her mum/shawns parents.
squeezed here and there.
walked until legs going to break liao=.=
'ster bought her laptop[lenovo].
can only collect next week.
hers is black and mine's orange[or sunset copper as they call it].
'ster and her mum bought dinner.
talked to 'ster.
did PD project.
CCT project still have one page!!!=.=
mummy's at leader's camp):
last week of school before term break!
HERE I COME!!!:D

like a samll kid[child] in a candy stall.i'm spoilt for choices.i really don't know what to do anymore.just so lost.i used to really know just what i wanted.what happened.is God really still in the centre of my life.is He still number 1.its actualy so simple but why does it seem so complicated at the same time.with the pain still hanging i struggle to find a solution among the many options.

rcs flag day...

Sunday, June 03, 2007

went to meet amanda but she was late.
seriously can't drink milo=.=
saw all the people doing flag day on the way there.
waited for the rest.
went to suntec then walked to marina there and split up after awhile.
headed to j8 with 'ster.
met all kinds of people.
unlike dearest who had a helper!HAHA!
those who ignored you.
angmohs who are so cat[its true!].
kids with their parents who helped[for the sticker?!].LOL.
those who walked away and came back.
those who walked past me['ster] and went to donate to 'ster[me].
those who just stared at you as they past.
highlights!
this cute yellow-shirt guy came from the back smiling as he dropped in the coins.
and i forgot how he looks like except he's cute.HAHA!
this girl who dropped in my 1st[and only] $2 note.
'ster has like so many la please.
lesson learned:go empty handed!=.=
bag was super heavy la!=.=
as i as standing there i realized something.
isit that difficult to just drop in something[any coin even 10 cents]?
the tin can is like the best crowd divider.sheesh!
so i've decided!
i'll always make an effort to drop in something!HAHA!
got a lift home from amanda's dad.thanks!:D
talked to jo lyn.
went to sleep.
been doing alot of thinking.

is this all really what i want?i don't want to make any deicision without Your approval.Your will is what really matters.i really need You to be there to help me.to guide me.to walk me through this.i cannot do this by my own strength.i'm really confused.somehow i don't seem to know what i really want.it just seems so blur.a marathon between my thoughts seems to be taking place in my brain.i'm lost.really lost...

the impact...

Saturday, June 02, 2007

grandma left for london[3 weeks]):
was super lost GD.
brain just refused to absorb anything=.=
went for cct like after sooo long=.=
went to kou fu and stayed there for super long.
both cct and lab ended early=.=
so much to absorb.
can't take it liao.
brain getting fried=.=
went to the library and slacked for 1hr=.=
renewed borrowing of that DE book=.=
went for cct lecture.
super boring so slept:D
went to meet dad at city hall.
went for IT fair.
luckily wasn't that crowded:D
got my laptop.
its toshiba and its orange=.=
chionged home and dumped stuff.
cabbed down to meet 'ster and shawn.
apparently the tickets' from her online friend=.=
the circus thing was alright.
walked to white sands.
talked to 'ster while we walked around.
tried anything and whatever[almost typed everything instead=.=].
one so gassy the other like chrysanthemum tea=.=
talked to amanda[ho] on the way home.
thanks for accompanying me on the phone!:D
flag day tomorrow!:D
meeting amanda for breakfast:D

~~the truth always hurts the most.i've decided to give up.i'll find the strength from God to move on.i'm learning.twice is enough.more than enough.~~

this is it...

Friday, June 01, 2007

happy vesak day everyone:D
didn't do much.
slacked alot.
caught up on lost sleep:D
did alot of thinking,
talked to zy and rachel[yong]:D
anyways.
its friday tomorrow:D
having some outing with 'ster/her classmate/shawn:D
then saturday have flag day:D
sunday have cell.
we're going to split cell soon)'=
oh wells.

i feel the pain oh-so-evidently now.i want to run away.back to when it all didn't exist.back to the beginning and stop it from happening.take me away.anywhere would be nice.to place HIM back in control. -the tears behind those smiles...