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&lastDayOfFYP

Friday, August 21, 2009

LOST...

today's the last day of FYP!

kinda long awaited and yet all too soon...

gonna miss my lab people!

its a good thing to have known them=]]

jackson and sirong the gay couple.

will miss hearing them go rongrong/tianxing & bao bei! LOL!

jia rong the damn tall one!

tian xuan and his knowledge of hotels. LOL!

guo jie and yingying our great DTs who signs 0830 even when i'm late=x

claris and her disturbing. LOL!

lastly...

MISS KWAN EILEEN![see i got it right! LOL!]

i purposely put purple leh! LOL!

hope you liked the card=]]

aiya no need write le la hor.

just go see the card can le=]]

A special tribute...

Dearest Nicole...

i don't really know what to say actually. after i received the call of the news on wednesday morning i thought it was all a joke. my brain could not wrap around the fact that its happened. i immediately tried to recall the last time i saw/met/talked to you and i couldn't really do so. it must have been at least 3yrs ago since i last saw you around and it was probably in secondary school. i can't even remember how i got to know you! in my memory you're one of the few precious friends i had in primary school. to me, you were very much like my elder sister as you kinda guided me and plus we shared the same surname. i remember the phone calls where your sis'll pick up and call for you. somehow we drifted and didn't really talk much in secondary school but i always noticed you around. as i type this i suddenly miss you so much. though i really can't understand and wonder why it happened and even question and blame God that He allowed it but i believe that its in His perfect timing and His plan. seeing you lay there for the last time, you looked so peaceful and i believe that you're happier now. looking around i saw the many ones you've touched along the way and it came to me as no surprise at the amount of people. you always stood out from the rest. so special... though today's the last day but i'm sure that you'll forever be remembered dearly by your many friends and loved ones. so rest in peace dear friend, knowing that you're loved and much missed. see you in Heaven and i know you're in the good hands of the Father.

much loves and misses...

&ARGHHH

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

ANNOYANCE

–noun
1. a person or thing that annoys; nuisance: Unwanted visitors are an annoyance.
2. an act or instance of annoying.
3. the feeling of being annoyed.
Origin:
1350–1400; ME < MF; see annoy, -ance

why can't we just do ONE AES?!?
so very very brain deaddd=[[[

note to self
SUBMIT MC!!!

&H1N1suspected

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

SICK...

–adjective

1.	afflicted with ill health or disease; ailing.

2.	affected with nausea; inclined to vomit.

3.	deeply affected with some unpleasant feeling, as of sorrow, disgust, or boredom: sick at heart; to be sick of parties.

4.	mentally, morally, or emotionally deranged, corrupt, or unsound: a sick mind; wild statements that made him seem sick.

5.	characteristic of a sick mind: sick fancies.

6.	dwelling on or obsessed with that which is gruesome, sadistic, ghoulish, or the like; morbid: a sick comedian; sick jokes.

7.	of, pertaining to, or for use during sickness: He applied for sick benefits.

8.	accompanied by or suggestive of sickness; sickly: a sick pallor; the sick smell of disinfectant in the corridors.

9.	disgusted; chagrined.

10.	not in proper condition; impaired.

11.

Agriculture.

a.	failing to sustain adequate harvests of some crop, usually specified: a wheat-sick soil.

b.	containing harmful microorganisms: a sick field.

12.	Now Rare. menstruating.

–noun

13.	(used with a plural verb) sick persons collectively (usually prec. by the).

—Idioms

14.	call in sick, to notify one's place of employment by telephone that one will be absent from work because of being ill.

15.	sick and tired, utterly weary; fed up: I'm sick and tired of working so hard!

16.	sick at one's stomach, Chiefly Midland and Southern U.S. nauseated.

17.	sick to one's stomach, Chiefly Northern, North Midland, and Western U.S. nauseated.

Origin:
bef. 900; ME sik, sek, OE sēoc; c. D ziek, G siech, ON sjūkr, Goth siuks

Synonyms:
1. infirm, indisposed. See ill. 2. nauseous, nauseated.

Antonyms:
1. well, hale, healthy.

fell sick last week=.=
had fever of 38.4/cough/headache...
just sleep and sleep and sleep.
like a pig yesh i know=.=
didn't go church cause of family lunch=.=
finally i had crab!!!=]]
dearest hippo had a her horfun with no tau geh and no vege.
HAHAHA!!!=]]

time to wake up already AUDREYLIMWEISHI!!!

4MOREDAYSSSTOGOOO!!!

&iCare...

CARE...

–noun

1.	a state of mind in which one is troubled; worry, anxiety, or concern: He was never free from care.

2.	a cause or object of worry, anxiety, concern, etc.: Their son has always been a great care to them.

3.	serious attention; solicitude; heed; caution: She devotes great care to her work.

4.	protection; charge: He is under the care of a doctor.

5.	temporary keeping, as for the benefit of or until claimed by the owner: He left his valuables in the care of friends. Address my mail in care of the American Embassy.

6.	grief; suffering; sorrow.

–verb (used without object)

7.	to be concerned or solicitous; have thought or regard.

8.	to be concerned or have a special preference (usually used in negative constructions): I don't care if I do.

9.	to make provision or look out (usually fol. by for): Will you care for the children while I am away?

10.	to have an inclination, liking, fondness, or affection (usually fol. by for): Would you care for dessert? I don't care for him very much.

–verb (used with object)

11.	to feel concern about: He doesn't care what others say.

12.	to wish; desire; like: Would you care to dance?

—Idioms

13.	couldn't care less, could not care less; be completely unconcerned: I couldn't care less whether she goes to the party or not. Also, could care less.

14.

take care,

a.	be alert; be careful: Take care that you don't fall on the ice!

b.	take care of yourself; goodbye: used as an expression of parting.

15.

take care of,

a.	to watch over; be responsible for: to take care of an invalid.

b.	to act on; deal with; attend to: to take care of paying a bill.

Origin:
bef. 900; (n.) ME; OE caru, cearu, c. Goth kara, OHG chara lament; (v.) ME caren, OE cearian, carian

Related forms:

carer, noun

Synonyms:
1. See concern. 3. To take care, pains, trouble (to do something) implies watchful, conscientious effort to do something exactly right. To take care implies the performance of one particular detail: She took care to close the cover before striking the match. To take pains suggests a sustained carefulness, an effort to see that nothing is overlooked but that every small detail receives attention: to take pains with fine embroidery. To take trouble implies an effort that requires a considerable amount of activity and exertion: to take the trouble to make suitable arrangements.

Usage note:
15. Couldn't care less, a phrase used to express indifference, is sometimes heard as could care less, which ought to mean the opposite but is intended to be synonymous with the former phrase. Both versions are common mainly in informal speech.

not feeling well since yesterday...
yesterday had a fever of 38deg.
very bad headache and felt like i was kinda burning.
this morning was 37.9deg.
head feels damn heavy=.=
eyes like buring already...
kinda wish i didn't come to school...
but i really didn't want to see a doc and take mc...
luckily no need take temperature.
probably'll get sent back=x
just feel like sleeping now=[[

all i wanted was some care and concern...
a hug would do nicely too...
never liked to show i'm weak.
cause people who i want to care for me...
will always be those who are indifferent.
but still..
stupidly i wish you would care for me.
just so stupid...

&if...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

IF...

–conjunction

1.	in case that; granting or supposing that; on condition that: Sing if you want to. Stay indoors if it rains. I'll go if you do.

2.	even though: an enthusiastic if small audience.

3.	whether: He asked if I knew Spanish.

4.	(used to introduce an exclamatory phrase): If only Dad could see me now!

5.	when or whenever: If it was raining, we had to play inside.

–noun

6.	a supposition; uncertain possibility: The future is full of ifs.

7.	a condition, requirement, or stipulation: There are too many ifs in his agreement.

—Idiom

8.	ifs, ands, or buts, reservations, restrictions, or excuses: I want that job finished today, and no ifs, ands, or buts.

Origin:
bef. 900; ME, var. of yif, OE gif, gef; akin to ON ef if, Goth ibai whether, OHG iba condition, stipulation

Synonyms:
1, 2. If, provided, providing imply a condition on which something depends. If is general. It may be used to indicate suppositions or hypothetical conditions (often involving doubt or uncertainty): If you like, we can go straight home. If I had known, I wouldn't have gone. If may mean even though: If I am wrong, you are not right. It may mean whenever: If I do not understand, I ask questions. Provided always indicates some stipulation: I will subscribe ten dollars provided (on the condition) that you do, too. Provided he goes, we can go along. Providing means the same as provided, that is, just in case some certain thing should happen: We will buy the house, providing (provided) we can get a mortgage.

Usage note:
If meaning “whether,” as in I haven't decided if I'll go, is sometimes criticized, but the usage has been established in standard English for a long time.

对...
我也是个人.
我也是会不开心.
但是你知道吗？
或许你只看到我的嬉皮笑脸.
在我好强的伪装下也有一颗脆弱的心.
但这又有谁会知道呢？
也许对每个人我只是个每天都很开心的人吧...
我开始累了.
你知道吗？

&HND

Sunday, August 09, 2009

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY ONE AND ALL!!!=]]]


Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna lose what we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Better go and get your armor (get your armor), 
get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor 
(get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright
'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, 
a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor 
(get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor 
(get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
Why does love always feel like (oh, oh)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for...



***battlefield - jordin sparks***



我正在苦中作乐...
你察觉出了吗?

&walk

Saturday, August 08, 2009

WALK...

–verb (used without object)

1.	to advance or travel on foot at a moderate speed or pace; proceed by steps; move by advancing the feet alternately so that there is always one foot on the ground in bipedal locomotion and two or more feet on the ground in quadrupedal locomotion.

2.	to move about or travel on foot for exercise or pleasure: We can walk in the park after lunch.

3.	(of things) to move in a manner suggestive of walking, as through repeated vibrations or the effect of alternate expansion and contraction: He typed so hard that the lamp walked right off the desk.

4.	Baseball. to receive a base on balls.

Slang.

a.	to go on strike; stage a walkout: The miners will walk unless they get a pay raise.

b.	to be acquitted or to be released or fined rather than sentenced to jail: If the prosecutor doesn't present his case well, the murderer may walk.

6.	to go about on the earth, or appear to living persons, as a ghost: to believe that spirits walk at night.

(of a tool, pointer, or pen of a recording device, etc.) to glide, slip, or move from a straight course, fixed position, or the like: A regular drill bit may walk on a plastic surface when you first try to make a hole. When the earthquake started, the pen on the seismograph walked all over the paper.

8.	to conduct oneself in a particular manner; pursue a particular course of life: to walk humbly with thy God.

9.	Basketball. (of a player in possession of the ball) to take more than two steps without dribbling or passing the ball.

10.	Obsolete. to be in motion or action.

–verb (used with object)

11.	to proceed through, over, or upon at a moderate pace on foot: walking London streets by night; walking the floor all night.

12.	to cause to walk; lead, drive, or ride at a walk, as an animal: We walked our horses the last quarter of a mile.

13.	to force or help to walk, as a person: They were walking him around the room soon after his operation.

14.	to conduct or accompany on a walk: He walked them about the park.

15.	to move (a box, trunk, or other object) in a manner suggestive of walking, as by a rocking motion.

16.	Baseball. (of a pitcher) to give a base on balls to (a batter).

17.	to spend or pass (time) in walking (often fol. by away): We walked the morning away along the beach.

18.	to cause or accomplish by walking: We saw them walking guard over the chain gang.

19.	to examine, measure, etc., by traversing on foot: to walk a track; to walk the boundaries of the property.

20.	Basketball. to advance (the ball) by taking more than two steps without dribbling or passing.

21.	Informal. to send (a person who has a reservation at a hotel) to another hotel because of overbooking: It's exasperating to find yourself walked when you arrive at a hotel late in the evening.

–noun

22.	an act or instance of walking or going on foot.

23.	a period of walking for exercise or pleasure: to go for a walk.

24.	a distance walked or to be walked, often in terms of the time required: not more than ten minutes' walk from town.

25.	the gait or pace of a person or an animal that walks.

26.	a characteristic or individual manner of walking: It was impossible to mistake her walk.

27.	a department or branch of activity, or a particular line of work: They found every walk of life closed against them.

28.	Baseball. base on balls.

29.	a path or way for pedestrians at the side of a street or road; sidewalk.

30.	a place prepared or set apart for walking.

31.	a path in a garden or the like.

32.	a passage between rows of trees.

33.	an enclosed yard, pen, or the like where domestic animals are fed and left to exercise.

34.	the walk. race walking.

35.	a sheepwalk.

36.	a ropewalk.

37.	(in the West Indies) a plantation of trees, esp. coffee trees.

38.	a group, company, or congregation, esp. of snipes.

39.

British.

a.	the route of a street vendor, tradesman, or the like.

b.	the district or area in which such a route is located.

c.	a tract of forest land under the charge of one forester or keeper.

40.	Archaic. manner of behavior; conduct; course of life.

41.	Obsolete. a haunt or resort.

—Verb phrases

42.	walk off, to get rid of by walking: to walk off a headache.

43.

walk off with,

a.	to remove illegally; steal.

b.	to win or attain, as in a competition: to walk off with the first prize for flower arrangements.

c.	to surpass one's competitors; win easily: to walk off with the fight.

44.

walk out,

a.	to go on strike.

b.	to leave in protest: to walk out of a committee meeting.

45.	walk out on, to leave unceremoniously; desert; forsake: to walk out on one's family.

46.	walk out with, British. to court or be courted by: Cook is walking out with the chauffeur.

47.

walk through, Theater, Television.

a.	to release (a play) by combining a reading aloud of the lines with the designated physical movements.

b.	Informal. to perform (a role, play, etc.) in a perfunctory manner.

c.	to make little or no effort in performing one's role: He didn't like the script and walked through his part.

48.	walk up, (of a hunter) to flush (game) by approaching noisily on foot and often with hunting dogs.

—Idioms

49.	take a walk, Informal. to leave, esp. abruptly and without any intention or prospect of returning (often used imperatively to indicate dismissal): If he doesn't get his way, he takes a walk. I don't need your advice, so take a walk.

50.	walk (someone) through, to guide or instruct carefully one step at a time: The teacher will walk the class through the entire testing procedure before the real test begins.

51.

walk Spanish,

a.	to be forced by another to walk on tiptoe.

b.	to walk cautiously.

c.	to be discharged or dismissed.

d.	to discharge or dismiss (someone).

52.	walk the plank. plank (def. 8).

Origin:
bef. 1000; (v.) ME walken, OE wealcan to roll, toss, gewealcan to go; c. D, G walken to full (cloth), ON vālka to toss; (n.) ME, deriv. of the v.

Synonyms:
1. step, stride, stroll, saunter, ambulate, perambulate, promenade. 22. stroll, promenade, constitutional. 25. step, carriage. 27. sphere, area, field. 29, 30. passage, footpath, alley, avenue. 33. run.

watched the hangover with jace at PS.
it was damn funny=]]
i love the baby in it!
he's damn cuteee!!!=]]]

尝试不去想但还是不自觉的去想...
我好累了...

&rainbowsEnd

Friday, August 07, 2009

RAINBOW...

–noun

1.	a bow or arc of prismatic colors appearing in the heavens opposite the sun and caused by the refraction and reflection of the sun's rays in drops of rain. Compare primary rainbow, secondary rainbow.

2.	a similar bow of colors, esp. one appearing in the spray of a waterfall or fountain.

3.	any brightly multicolored arrangement or display.

4.	a wide variety or range; gamut.

5.	a visionary goal: He pursued the rainbow of a singing career for years before becoming a success.

6.	rainbow trout.

–adjective

7.	made up of diverse races, ethnic groups, etc.: a rainbow coalition of supporters.

Origin:
bef. 1000; ME reinbowe, OE regnboga; c. ON regnbogi, G Regenbogen. See rain, bow ²

Related forms:

rainbowy, rain⋅bow⋅like, adjective

nothing much's been happening.
just the usual routine everyday.
think i should just stay at home.
its a total waste of time to go to school=x

i'm not upset that i'm single.
yes i do get jealous of others.
but i really don't give a damn if i'm single.
i just wanna stop freaking liking anyone anymore.
i've had enough.
i'm just so damn freaking tired.
what the hell is wrong with me...

* * *
at rainbows end thats where you'll find
if it means anything to you
look carefully and you'll see
cause it ain't so hard
if you look carefully
* * *

&sleep

Monday, August 03, 2009

SLEEP...

–verb (used without object)

1.	to take the rest afforded by a suspension of voluntary bodily functions and the natural suspension, complete or partial, of consciousness; cease being awake.

2.	Botany. to assume, esp. at night, a state similar to the sleep of animals, marked by closing of petals, leaves, etc.

3.	to be dormant, quiescent, or inactive, as faculties.

4.	to be careless or unalert; allow one's alertness, vigilance, or attentiveness to lie dormant: While England slept, Germany prepared for war.

5.	to lie in death: They are sleeping in their tombs.

–verb (used with object)

6.	to take rest in (a specified kind of sleep): He slept the sleep of the innocent.

7.	to accommodate for sleeping; have sleeping accommodations for: This trailer sleeps three people.

8.	to spend or pass in sleep (usually fol. by away or out): to sleep the day away.

9.	to recover from the effects of (a headache, hangover, etc.) by sleeping (usually fol. by off or away).

–noun

10.	the state of a person, animal, or plant that sleeps.

11.	a period of sleeping: a brief sleep.

12.	dormancy or inactivity.

13.	the repose of death.

14.	sleeper (def. 10).

—Verb phrases

15.	sleep around, Informal. to have sexual relations with many partners, esp. in a casual way; be sexually promiscuous.

16.

sleep in,

a.	(esp. of domestic help) to sleep where one is employed.

b.	to sleep beyond one's usual time of arising.

17.	sleep on, to postpone making a decision about for at least a day: to sleep on a proposal till the end of the week.

18.

sleep out,

a.	(esp. of domestic help) to sleep away from one's place of employment.

b.	Chiefly Northern U.S. to sleep away from one's home.

c.	to sleep outdoors.

19.	sleep over, to spend one or more nights in a place other than one's own home: Two friends will sleep over this weekend.

20.	sleep together, to be sexual partners; have a sexual relationship.

21.	sleep with, to have sexual relations with.

—Idiom

22.	put to sleep, to put (an animal) to death in a humane way: to put a sick old dog to sleep.

Origin:
bef. 900; (n.) ME; OE slēp (Anglian), slǣp, slāp; c. D slaap, G Schlaf, Goth slēps; (v.) ME slepen, OE slēpan, slǣpan, slāpan, c. OS slāpan, Goth slēpan

Related forms:

sleepful, adjective

sleeplike, adjective

Synonyms:
1. slumber, nap, drowse, doze. 10. rest, repose. 11. nap.

i'm just not happyyy...
very not happy...
arghhh...
wish i can just sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep...
and maybe like how i've always wanted i'll die!
i just don't wanna know anything.
why isit always me.
once is just like never enough...
arghhh...
just leave me out of it.
thats all i ask of you.
please...

RAWRRR~~~!!! =[[[[[[[
this suckssuckssuckssucks sooo muchmuchmuch...

read between the lines
and you'll find
the answer...

&feelings

FEELINGS...

1.	the function or the power of perceiving by touch.

2.	physical sensation not connected with sight, hearing, taste, or smell.

3.	a particular sensation of this kind: a feeling of warmth; a feeling of pain.

4.	the general state of consciousness considered independently of particular sensations, thoughts, etc.

5.	a consciousness or vague awareness: a feeling of inferiority.

6.	an emotion or emotional perception or attitude: a feeling of joy; a feeling of sorrow.

7.	capacity for emotion, esp. compassion: to have great feeling for the sufferings of others.

8.	a sentiment; attitude; opinion: The general feeling was in favor of the proposal.

9.	feelings, sensibilities; susceptibilities: to hurt one's feelings.

10.	fine emotional endowment.

11.

(in music, art, etc.)

a.	emotion or sympathetic perception revealed by an artist in his or her work: a poem without feeling.

b.	the general impression conveyed by a work: a landscape painting with a spacious feeling.

c.	sympathetic appreciation, as of music: to play with feeling.

–adjective

12.	sensitive; sentient.

13.	readily affected by emotion; sympathetic: a feeling heart.

14.	indicating or characterized by emotion: a feeling reply to the charge.

Origin:
1125–75; ME; see feel, -ing ¹ , -ing ²

Related forms:

feel⋅ing⋅ly, adverb

feel⋅ing⋅ness, noun

Synonyms:
5. Feeling, emotion, passion, sentiment refer to pleasurable or painful sensations experienced when one is stirred to sympathy, anger, fear, love, grief, etc. Feeling is a general term for a subjective point of view as well as for specific sensations: to be guided by feeling rather than by facts; a feeling of sadness, of rejoicing. Emotion is applied to an intensified feeling: agitated by emotion. Passion is strong or violent emotion, often so overpowering that it masters the mind or judgment: stirred to a passion of anger. Sentiment is a mixture of thought and feeling, esp. refined or tender feeling: Recollections are often colored by sentiment. 6. sympathy, empathy, tenderness, sensitivity, sentiment. 12. emotional, tender. 13. impassioned, passionate.

Antonyms:
5, 6. apathy. 12. cold.

for where your heart is,
so is your treasure...

i'm not a toy.
please just leave me alone...
its not funny.
at all...
its just suffocating me.
i can hardly breathe...
but why does it affect me so...

&thoughts

THOUGHTS...

–noun

1.	the product of mental activity; that which one thinks: a body of thought.

2.	a single act or product of thinking; idea or notion: to collect one's thoughts.

3.	the act or process of thinking; mental activity: Thought as well as action wearies us.

4.	the capacity or faculty of thinking, reasoning, imagining, etc.: All her thought went into her work.

5.	a consideration or reflection: Thought of death terrified her.

6.	meditation, contemplation, or recollection: deep in thought.

7.	intention, design, or purpose, esp. a half-formed or imperfect intention: We had some thought of going.

8.	anticipation or expectation: I had no thought of seeing you here.

9.	consideration, attention, care, or regard: She took no thought of her appearance.

10.	a judgment, opinion, or belief: According to his thought, all violence is evil.

11.	the intellectual activity or the ideas, opinions, etc., characteristic of a particular place, class, or time: Greek thought.

12.	a very small amount; a touch; bit; trifle: The steak is a thought underdone.

Origin:
bef. 900; ME thoght, OE (ge)thōht; c. D gedachte; akin to thank, think ¹

Synonyms:
2. See idea. 3. reflection, cogitation.

just very not happy.
just very unhappy.
just very emo.
just so...

~!@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!~

hate it that i feel something.
hate it that i'm affected.
hate it that i care.
hate it that it matters so.
hate it for being there.
hate it for being so.
hate it for being you.
hate it that it ever happened.
hate it that you don't seem to care.
hate it that you seem to know.
hate it that i'm so attracted to you.
to your smile...