woke up early=.=went to school.it was raining again.stayed till the end.saw candy.threw away 1-2 marks=.=injured my hand again.did quizes while waiting for 'ster at home.met and went to the airport.went to macs.saw tiffany[ning] & some ex-sacians senior.went to see aeroplanes.so dark ah=.=went for swensons=Dhad sticky chewy chocolate.guess what.we had it OUTSIDE swensons!LOL!so crowded la=.=we finished 1 pint tub=Dshe made me eat alot=.=outing with dearest tomorrow!=Dfound out some stuff.sometimes i wish i didn't know.why isit just me.wish i can just scream it out.they just keep coming.wish can at least solve one at a time.now to stop it all.and to disappear.God why...who cares.
I've been tagged by: YanShanRules and Regulations:1) Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.2) People who get tagged needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly.3) In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names.i like smiling and can smile for very long=Di actually resort to counting sheeps when i can't sleep[not so often now].i used to try counting stars[wonder why]=.=i can eat alottt...i used to keep receipts when i spend alot.LOL!i like getting high at REALLY random times!=D5 lucky people!=D-denise-esther-joan-chia hui-su wentagged by:DeniseSEVEN QUALITIES I WANT IN A POTENTIAL PARTNER:GODLY!=Dcan singathleticfilialdecisivestrongunderstandingSEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME:the darkstalkerspeople i'm not close to touching mebeing alone[not scared but just dislike]animals who think i'm their next mealwhen people around me becomes mischievousinjections!=.=SEVEN RANDOM SONGS:from the inside outmiracle makersexy backlips of an angelchou nan renirreplaceableordinary worldSEVEN THINGS I LIKE MOST:my biblemy phonemy laptopmusicmy bedmy bolstermy foodSEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY BEDROOM:
my bible
my bed
my bolster
my laptop
my phone charger
my fan
my clothes
SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
i'm an emo kid.
i dislike pink.alot.
my phone model is nokia 6111.
i attend riverlife church.
i belong to highlife.
i listen to music while studying.
i live in a HDB flat.
SEVEN THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
save my family.
better understand the bible.
go on a mission trip.
have better relationship with those around me.
start reading again.
start playing instruments.
fulfil my destiny.
SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO:
play piano/guitar/violin
type fairly quick
walk for considerable distance
smile very long=D
eat alot
tune out my surroundings when reading
stare into nothingness for quite a while
SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
i see.
alright.
okie.
haha.
LOL.
hmmm.
wheee.
SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO DO THIS TEST:
-esther
-yanshan
-aisyah
-pavyyy
-joan
-chia hui
-su wen
here to take my mind off CT.
last paper is so disgusting!=.=
invented a new word last week!=D
siao+liao=sliao!
see how CTs drove me nuts.
like in the picture.
except that its not a secret.
maybe it does apply in another instance.
oh nevermind.
stressstressstressstressstressstressstress[etc]!
*RUNS AROUND PULLS OUT HAIR & SCREAMS*
anyone knows a good way to de-stress.
i need Your peace God.
save meee~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE~!=Dhad to wake up so early.it was freezing.rained so heavily.made me so wet=.=shall watch loads of videos.entertain myself=Dlast paper on thursday!exams are so disgusting.next term must study harder=.=so siannn...
finished up my notes.
tried getting started.
something happened.
think sleep really takes up alot of time.
need self-control=.=
3 days to freedom...
annoyinggg=.=
but nevermind.
looking forward!
to the many things planned=D
2 more papers=.=
may they pass quickly.
i'm leaving it in God's hands man.
sometimes.
i feel that i'm really weak.
perhaps cause i've learnt.
to put on that brave front.
so that people around me will be happy.
had cell discussion stuff.
cell multiplication impending!
mixed feelings about it.
service was interesting.
went for meeting.
then studied abit.
thank you ACL for waiting with/for me.
long journey home man=.=
tomorrow have to chiong again=.=
4 more days before i'm free!
oh God help me please...
can't wait for all the post exam things i can do.
i'm dyinggg...
exams are so extremely disgusting.
just like those 6 things in the picture.
that were eventually mixed into a drink.
imagine having to drink it.
result:burping a different flavour everytime.
secrets is such a touching show!
On the other hand, my dad just told me that me, my sis and my cousin are most likely to be sent to further our studies in Australia after me and Shu complete our O-levels.
-quoted from my sis's blog
i was told awhile ago.
i can laugh/smile even when i'm down.
no one sees the tears.
wonder how i do it.
woke up early again.should start sleeping earlier.bad habit ah=.=went to church to study.nat stayed for awhile.cho came afterwhich.esther joined later on.was really not productive man=.=watched videos then listen to songs.esther's laptop gone ahhh.poor thing man.went for dinner after that.tomorrow's service=Dthen meeting after that.and study again!fairytales are nice.thats why they're called fairytales.i wish all this never happened.don't know how you see it.wonder how it'll be like.if all this never had happened.
woke up early.after so long of sleeping till one[plus]=.=did so much cramming.i really pity my brain man.oh wells!its really like having 3 major papers at a go.history/ss/geographyall the memorizing!=.=sports hall so cold=.=forgot to bring sweater=.=went to find annoyant pass him tb.chionged down to church.went for supper.got a ride home from ren hao=Dtomorrow studying in church=.=HIGHLIFE HAS SO MANY AUDREYS!call me weishi la!so confusing=.=oh wellies...2 more papers to go!!!legs hurts from walking to much):
yup everybody.tomorrow's the day.why so much info.why so many numbers.sane also become insane.rahhh...aunt in malaysia kena dengue.kinda worried for her.wish i was her in a way.why isit that its this way.why does all bad things come together.i'm really fragile.i'm only human afterall.like someone told me.when you listen.would the other listen.should i simply just be selfish.in a show i wached.someone said.if you're selfish you'll have a easier life.cause you won't have to care.
productive day=Dso proud of myself.got to go back to DCN.oh-so-dreaded module.bleaghs to the max.uber disgusting la!=.=think about it will sian la!=.=so headache!=.=html seems so much easier.though interlinked.stuff keep repeating.good also la.can memorize liao.feel like getting it over & done with.forsee loads of last minute crammings though.what to do.seems like the only way for now.just concentrate on studies for now.i guess thats all i can do.feel like i'm such a failure.wonder what i'm good for.to be made used.to be forgotten.to be left alone.if only there was a 'backspace' in life.to go back to the beginning.wish i was still a kid.wish i was more innocent.wish i didn't know anything.beneathe all this.i'm just a tired little girl.
sis didn't go school.kena-ed from grams.got woken up to shoutings=.=wonder how she can actully oversleep.had a good talk.didn't do as much as intended.yet again=.=this is really bad.must really buck up.i'm so not ready=.=so siannn=.=3 more papers.can't wait for the holidays man.can't concentrate.so many things.perhaps i think too much.really don't know what to do.don't want to add to other people's problems.trust in God.i'm really trying.everyone says i need a break.i don't know.wish i didn't know so much.what should i do.what could i do.how about...to.just.disappearwonder how much i have left.just want to leave with what i have,
rather productive.
didn't finish as much as intended.
caught a flu.
don't know from where.
not a good thing.
when you're trying to study.
wish it'll rain.
love rainy days=D
must make up for lost time=.=
yc from 3rd-5th=D
feel so selfish now.
but on the otherhand.
i'm tired.
past few months have just been so eventful.
just wish that all this would end.
don't know how long i can take it.
feel like i'm all alone.
wish i didn't care.
then perhaps.
all this wouldn't have started.
now would be a really good time to hear from you God.
cause thats all i really need.
HAPPY 16th birthday to riverlife!=D1st service uber funny=Dushered for 2nd.chao offering cause of cell.feel uber bad cause not enough people=.=split into guys[ACL] & girls[CL].rather interesting sharing;Dhad pizza[courtesy of cho's mum]=Darrived at abigail's party.so many kids.only 1 to feel old=.=kept eating but talked alot=Dwatched king kong[last part].left with the 2 girls.cabbed home with 'ster.on relationship:to have you have to like someone.for our age usually is 1-sided.equals time wasted thinking of that person.worse if you're emo.yes God made us with feelings.word of advice.don't tell anyone.cause then you won't talk about it.then you won't think.yes God made us to multiply & be fruitful.but i rather not go through the heartache.my heart fragile ah.to like someone is not wrong.[for me it is especially like some...]but don't let your world revolve around the topic of him.seriously he's not worth it.God intended for us to have the best.why settle for anything less.[eh that rhymes=D]anyway.if God intended for him/her to be the one.why worry.might be that either/both of you are not ready.there's more to relationships than the loveydovey side.i know what i'm talking about.speaking from experience.but then again as an anti-relationship person this is my take.not trying to force my view on anyone.just food for thought.
woke up late.was raining super heavily.finally made it to church=.=quite productive=Dwent for lunch.joined by vanessa and nat.mugged some more.chionged home for dinner.bus came as i reached=Dkena rushed like don't know what.got a [bus] ride to the bistro.called bistro 793.number:unit number.LOL!alot of meat=.=had white/red wine.prefer champagne/sweet wine though.going for 1st service.ushering in 2nd.hope can chao for cell.have assimilation thingy.abigail's birthday party.so lazy to go=.=holidays come faster la=.=perhaps being miss nice is not me.
i'm tired of it.
i feel so made used.
like though you're living my life.
like how mummy put it.
why isit that you can do nothing and have what i have.
perhaps i'm trying to hard.
maybe i should just learn to shut up.
what if...
i just dropped everything.
act as if i'm just a shadow.
oh i wonder.i'm tired of bein taken for granted.for how oh audrey'll do it.tired of taking the initiative.what if... i just dropped everything. act as if i'm just a shadow.oh i wonder.
quite productive today=Dresisted temptation of my bed=Dhaving study session in church tomorrow.seems like not many people going.so much notes to do=.=dinner with cousins=Dfinally see how weak i am. i'm so tired. am i really so nice to make use of. so easy to forget also. what am i to you. to the others.look at the big picture. i know you went through what i went through. perhaps you forgot how you felt back during my age. what should i do. i don't know how to let you understand how i feel. or anyone. no one seems to understand. or care either. i know i should look to God. but i feel so unappreciated. wonder who noticed that i locked my blog.no one seems to notice even if i'm gone.walk in the rain so no one'll see you're crying.-hugs unreturned...
wasn't really productive yesterday.studied with siti/cindy/ashley.on the floor at bugis national library.quite productive.result:backaches & buttaches.headed down to meet vanessa.was early cause the rest gave up studying.got our tickets at MS.had dinner and talked.movie was great.really funny and yet the meaning was there.grabbed mcflurry and talked some more.saw 2 uni people while waiting for 17.[can't remember their names =x]more studying tomorrow!brain going bonkus with extreme overload=.=perhaps due to emo music.been thinking alot.sometimes i feel i should keep quiet.some people can just keep quiet and yet be there.perhaps i just want to feel appreciated.like i'm not needed.i'm suddenly so tired.to try anything anymore.why isit that some people can have everything going smoothly.perhaps being emotion-less is the only solution.being anti-social doesn't seem so bad afterall.now to just get myself into that.its time to disappear.
wasted my day away.
filed all my stuff.
no mood to study.
what to do...
been thinking alot.
i'm suddenly very tired.
i don't feel like doing so many things.
and yet...
i don't seem to have a choice.
i resent having to be the one to take the first step.
so much expectations from others.
maybe cause they don't know me.
sometimes i don't know myself.
don't even know what i'm doing.
just seem to always be this way.
what's my destiny in life God?
went to print stuff.realized i missed 1 copy=.=burned into cd.'cher disappeared for like 2hrs=.=helped with tracing.FINALLY handed up my LAST project=Dwent for lunch with yeling & yanshan.went back to collect my stuff.left with the rest.wednesday studying with siti and cindy.thursday outing with vanessa[goh].can't wait for after exams.so many things i want to do=.=got to start studying=.=why does it have to be this way.though i don't have to do it.but i'll still have to do it.its just part of it.perhaps its known all along.unavoidable.
was late in meeting celine.decided some stuff.went for lunch at cs.nat/vanessa/me/CL/ACL/jiang liang/wee kiatleft for cho's place.rented 3 movies.waterboys/anger managementcan't remember the 3rd.quite sleepy by the 2nd movie.how are you feeling?so funny la!=Dwatched the rest eat dinner.cho gave 5 of us a ride back.his dad was like the tester.LOL!super squeezy at the back=.=but was a fun[ny] ride=Dcompleted the script[i guess]!=Dgot to go hand up GD project.can't wait man!AUDREY SHOULD START STUDYING!=.=prayer.a conversation between two people in love with each other.agree no?
caught up on sleep=D
i haven't started studying.
yes i know i'm lazy.
no mood to finish up my project either.
lazylazylazy...
just found this.
by mummy aka joan=D
procrastination won't do you any good!
that would apply to everyone.
so lets all jia you!
tomorrow's sunday!=D
sometimes i don't know what i'm doing.
guess i really need those 'taps'.
teach me.
yesterday was a total waste of time.happy belated birthday to Singapore anyway=Dso nevermind...went to school super early.started on pw.lab was quite crowded after awhile.pavyyy came!=Dshe says i look like a zombie=.=chionged through pw.went to dhoby ghaut to walk.finally finished watching ISWAK=Dto pavyyy:thanks for your help today!so sorry didn't watch movie in the end.perhaps next time we can go watch lor.sorry was quite dead so reaction lag ahhh=.=oh wells.hope you had fun!=Dsometimes i just wana be left alone.why don't you understand.fallen world oh fallen world.may God teach me to love His people more.to be able to understand.praise Him in the storm.praise Him in all circumstances.He is good all the time!and all the time He is good!MUCH LOVES!=D
went for extra class.kinda waste of time.went out with sis.got to start on project=.=so freaking no mood man=.=can't wait for friday!=Douting with pavyyy too=Dwheee~!=Dlife's not a bed of roses.if only life had more fairytale endings.the many if onlys...
mugged for so long.but to no avail=.=went to school earlier.joined the rest in the library.i'm so not ready =xthe paper was so difficult!=.=watched epic movie.its alright la.LOL.anyways!I'm tagged!
each player of the game starts off with 10 weird things/ habits/ known facts, about himself/herself.people who are tagged, must re-post this in their own blog on either ten weird things/ habits/ little facts about themselves, as well as stating this rule clearly.at the end of the game, the player must choose another 6 people to be tagged, and list them down. Remember, there is No Tagging Back!-loves God=D-i'm quite vocal.[by:CL/wk]-i have infectious energy.[by:denise]-i love hugs!-i'm rather emo.-i get high randomly.-i'm really random when i'm bored.-i'm friendly.[by:leonard]-i like to smile=D-i'm hyper.[by:denise[again]LOL!]tagged people!-denise LP=D-alicia dearest=D-pavyyy=D-joan=D-amanda jayne=D-chu wen=DYour love endures forever.i stand here in awe of You.waiting for the day that i'll finally see You face to face.i love You!=D
caught up on sleep:Dstarted re-doing notes.should have done that long ago =.=fell asleep halfway.wasted the whole afternoon la!=.=finished re-doing my notes.looked at the past year paper.guess what.i can't do the questions!don't understand la!=.=God give me understanding please!i'm so not ready=.=i don't want to fail la...=.=i'm going crazy soon man=.=i miss FOP=.=so many things have happened.still learning.guess i needed that wake up call from God.God keeps quiet so that we'll wake up.how true...
fridayschool as usual.project was not productive.chiong-ed to kallang mrt.took shuttle bus there.north entrance is like just walk in.delirious:your generation.don moen:my generationby wee kiat.lightings are nice but abit redundant?pastor pringle's funny!LOL!had dinner at macs.saturdayoverslept by like 1hr=.=went to meet cindy.walked around alot.had caramel frap then red bull=.=siti came then completed project.took a nap andoverlept=.=did something stupid.sat alone behind the stage=.=went to find the rest.amanda's dad gave us a ride home.sundaywent for service.then rushed down for daniel's grandma's wake.we were too late=.=went for lunch at bedok inter.curry chicken noodles was disappointing.nat and cho left.CL and i went to stadium to rot.he kept singing till i got hooked=.=he never sleeps he never slumbers...had seats liao so took our time.amanda came then went to north entrance.no queue again!LOL!sat at west entrance this time.so much better to sit with your friends!no encore this time):oh wells.went for frog porridge with CL and derrick.all in all FOP was good.can't wait for next year!:Di'm coming back to the heart of worship...
wednesdaylecture was sian la.GD did sketching =xDCN had test=.=did project till around 6.finished all the course feedback.LOL!kinda chiong-ed through it.thursdayPMP project gonna close liao.tomorrow hand up PMP and IAD project.chionging DEP report.then left only GD.have to do the cms thing for miss lian.kinda feel like taking the test again.ahahahahahah.DCN re-test is like might as well don't?lucky no need re-take lab test.went pw-ing in library.totally no idea for DEP please.i so can't wait for next week!i'm so sleep deprived):and there's also EUWS!):FOP for the next 3 days.kinda looking forward man:Dfallen world.to live in it is so tiring.you expect people to change when they have flaws.you expect people to learn to except you when its you with flaws.i really don't get it man.i guess in all this.God is good.no matter how faraway you are.He will still provide.
monday
had like no voice.
kinda did abit of html.
decided not to hand up.
monday no need to school liao!:D
tuesday
chionged project like siao.
end up teacher not there=.=
my laptop can't burn cds):
quiz was kinda messy.
went through exam stuff for 2nd lesson.
so many things so stress!):
got to start studying man!):
doing project tomorrow.
tuesday also no more lesson liao!:D
i miss EU so freaking alot man!
i even dreamt of a dance session=.=
next one's in september/october i think):
and its yc.
oh wells.
never thought a smile can hurt.
and yet i find the tears falling.
the smile that stole my heart and broke it.
i just don't learn my lesson do i.
time to focus on other stuff.
like studies.
and to start walking back to God.
God save me.
take control of my life once again.
for EU july '07.
27th-29th july.
with the new assists!:D
back row: brian,nicki,derek,john[jr],sherlynn[face hidden):],weishi,menghan
centre row: me,baoyi,jumana[can't see face):],natalie,linnette,liwen[jeraine],stephanie,sonia
front row: john[snr],weikai[spastic!LOL!],steve,nigel,shannon[i'll miss you!):],baowen
i miss assisting so much):
come EU come!):