wednesdaythe sports hall was so cold!=.=forgot some stuff=.=gerry cancelled cause of her ankle):ended up playing pool.cell was only the three of us.me/'ster/ongwent to slack at dte.saw jonathan and he's left school!=.=spent the whole day slacking.watched like 3 movies.recently been rather into online shopping.this is no good man!=.=tomorrow's EU!(:its going to be sunday!!!(:i've decided to make full use of this holiday.not necessary to work.just want to do something meaningful too.note to lisbeth & alicia!you guys are adopted.AND!!!i'm not in denial!=.=
prayer meetingwas kinda late for it.the whole worship center was so full!it was a really powerful time.went home with roxane(:cell nightcabbed down to church=.=had the last session for mnj.went for ML worship.tried to study but was terrible=.=kena sabo-ed onstage to say grace=.=dinner and game was great(:aiya everything was great la!(:released something(:cabbed home with roxane(:sundayservice was great!(:sp asked to pray for Highlifers!(:went for lunch at bk(:then went to meet faritz who was late=.=followed alicia to somerset & wk came along.met alicia's friend for dinner.watched l change the world!(:its super nice can!!!todayfinally down with another paper!(:went to eat at koufu with the rest.it was raining cats and dogs=.=had a downloading spree=.=got all the materials for maths.going out with geraldine on wednesday!(:
went to meet amy at tea valley.super early so decided to take a walk(:had a good talk with her(:perhaps she'll become my mentor.who knows.HOHO!(:went home for a nap(:went to meet zy at orchard.kite runners was sold out.psILoveYou was a fall back.the book is really so much better):oh wellies...my bag was drenched=.=went to sit at platform and kinda talked.have to get back to studying!!!=.=life is as such.the world is scary.when God's not in the picture.
just blogged and for some reason can't post.went to meet daddy after my paper.couldn't find what we wanted at simei.and walked around to no avail at tm.meeting amy tomorrow!(:sis leaving for camp in malaysia tomorrow.wish i didn't grow up so fast.the world out there is so scary.
finally down with java already!(:met daddy at eastpoint after my paper.walked around so much but didn't get what i want=.=neither did i get it in tm.walked so much is like exercising=.=meeting amy tomorrow!(:yay my hair's longerrr...(:sometimes i wish i didn't grow up so fast.the world is really so scary.
ARGH!!!kinda wish i didn't know anything at all.a trust between friends can be so scary.been feeling so helpless recently.wish someone could tell me what to do.just don't want to see you get hurt.or regret what you're going to do.i'm only a 17yrs old girl.feels really terrible.ahhh...feel like crying again.sarah says God's teaching me to trust in Him.guess i really lack that trust.why has the world screwed it up so badly.God help...daddy's so sweet(:he's gonna get me the pullover i want(:
saturdaywent to meet roxane early in the morning.it was a great session overall(:megalife worship was rather short.took a super long journey to family thing.still can't believe i have a neice called grace=.=spent the time with shu doing BL stuff.curry screwed up my stomach=.=sundayservice was not bad(:lunched at subway.watched jumper at cs.me/amanda/kelton/cho/ian/this new guygot tickets last minute so was 1st row.was kinda disappointed though.went to walk around.i'm not ready for JAVAAA~!):just going to surrender to God.
cell was not bad in church with only 4 of us.finished with all my notes making.really have no mood to study man=.=outing with denise on vday(:went to play pool today(:me/'ster/sherman/derrick/cindyshawn was there also surprisingly.something !@#$% happened!=.=don't know wth happened.don't know why the world i was so worried.or even why i was so pissed.or annoyed.or why i felt all the other emotions.just don't want to care anymore.nobody even explained what happened.why do i even bother in the first place.
had to drag myself out of bed.thanks to the many voices going on about studying=.=started to gather my stuff and realized some stuff are missing=.=staring at the thick java book was all it took.ended up reading and playing with my sis' curler.result : burned hand=.=switched to playing hp games=.="suddenly had this killer headache and fell asleep=.=i have to study from chapters 2-12 for java!!!=.="someone please kill me now la...just want to off my phone and throw it away.somewhere far would be good.after so long and so much.guess i'll just admit it.saying that i don't want to get married.or even to get attached.i'm just scared to get hurt.after all the 'experience' i've got.to be/get shaken is about the last thing i want to happen.i just don't want my emotions to take over.sometimes i really wish you wouldn't be so nice.isit just me?really starting to believe i'll never find love.God please teach me to guard my heart.
saturdaywoke up feeling extremely bored and slacked.alicia had to go to her for her parents' cell thingy.mei offered for me to go out with her and her friend.was talking to meow and offered for him to come.end up sis' friend cancelled so was me/sis/meow on cab.went to kallang but movie so late and place so boring=.=cabbed down vivo and walked around alot.meow was like not acting his age=.=walked so far then end up eating at pastamania.went to walk around so much and got movies(:meow came and we watched memoirs of a geisha.sundaywas kinda late so ended up not meeting amanda):met up with lis and titus and amanda at the atrium(:went for lunch at different taste with the other poly people.then for bubble tea and the ns guys joined us.then went to the arcade as usual.watched balls of fury and ratatouille.got to start studying soon...!which is tomorrow!!!):RAHHH~!
got woken up bright and early with minimal sleep=.=travelled all the way to jelapang[took LRT]=.=wore the wrong shoes that worsened stuff):travelled to dhoby then changed to go sengkang=.=well it made me think alot while i was there.am reminded of zy's comment that i'm melancholic.well my 3rd uncle contracted cancer and has only days.life is really short as you know it.suddenly reminded of that time when i attempted suicide.the whole time there was really overwhelming for me.i feel so helpless and useless.and yet i was feeling so inferior due to somebody.that all seemed to not matter anymore.my thoughts went back to my grandmother.what if i can't save her in time and my parents also.this has really been bugging me and yet i haven't actually done anything about it.am i really just going to continue like that?parents are off to m'sia tomorrow.ps,ILoveYou is a really good book.ahhh what to do i'm a sucker for sappy stuff=.=God i'm really so human and so powerless without You.please teach and guide me on what i should do...
sorry people for the lack of updates.too lazy plus internet was conked for some reason.not much has happened so lets see...celebrated leo's 18th birthday last sunday.i'm still younggg!=Dattempts to study has proved to be total failures.went for sushi buffet with zy after don't know how long.i have tons of pictures to upload=Dreunion dinner was kinda not as nice as the usual.today was just really boring???can even fall asleep on my dear cousin MISS LIM SHU-YI!this whole batch of relatives didn't come this time round.distant relatives arrived and took over as usual.my cousin[vereal if thats how you spell his name] is 24!joshua[2nd one] is 20 this year.and jovina's my age.i've got good-looking cousins.jealous anyone?though i'll never tell them.hahaha...slacked around after the whole bunch left=.=went to 3rd uncle's place for dinner as usual.i took ALOT of pictures...=.=sunday is so missed!!!=D
officially done with CTs for this sem!=Dwent to cut hair after meeting dad.tomorrow's saturday!=Dnever thought it'll feel good to say this...but i'm bored!HAHA!shall start studying again next week or something.but i still wanna go outtt...finally a sunday that feels like one!=D
