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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

missed my train stop for the 1st time ever.
met amy at macs and both at iced latte.
had a good and long talk.
got sis' present and a red hairband.
been doing alot if thinking for a really long time.
2 papers for CTs for week 9.
on monday and on wednesday.
i miss so many things.

you made my day=D

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

wk:hey
a:uh huh
wk:how can you put its too late after law of attraction
a:why cannot
wk:they just doesn't go along
a:LOL
so random
wk:you're attracting more stuff
a:???
wk:when you look back you will keep seeing stuff as its too late
you will always be late
cause you're using the law of attraction the way?
a:its not that
i have a ';' in between
and the 2nd part is totally not connected
wk:hahaha but its just wrong lah
hahaha ok nvm
btw i just wanted to tell you something
a:oh
sure
wk:before i sleep
a:LOL
wk:the last eu
actually i wanted to say for my best thing is
you
a:huh
wk:my best thing at the end of the programe is you actually
a:how come
haha
wk:ok no offence
i think you're weird at times
BUT
i think you're really nice
kind
caring
which really touched me
sorry that i didn't have the courage to say that
a:oh
i see
's alright
wk:(:
a:i'm honoured all the same though you just said i'm weird
HMM
haha
wk:i might be mean but i'm not blind
lol
a:uh huh
so you realized
wk:ohhh yar
and you're hardworking
hahaha
(:
a:LOL
wk:ok i was super impressed by you
a:you were
wk:yar
a:thanks
welcome
wk:i should thank you
a:you made my day also
how come
wk:cause you kept asking me if i'm ok when i'm not
and stuff like that
thank you for doing those
(:
okok i wanna sleep already
a:oh
haha
wk:good night
a:alright
nights
wk:ok maybe i will work on my best thing someday
sigh..
a:you can do it
haha
go sleep

i'm a and wk is that person.
name not mentioned in case of and unforseen circumstance[s].
meeting amy at the airport tomorrow=D

i wish you would just give me a chance.
i don't want to just throw it all away.
i'm just learning from all of this.

EUs=D

Monday, November 26, 2007

two EUs have gone by just like that with only thursday for me to rest.
but there were the good and bad about the two.
first EU assisted the donkeys.
they had some who really took the initiative.
second EU assisted the cows.
the girls were the ones who made so much effort.
seems like i was known by many at the second EU.
honestly was the first time i'm so involved with the participants.
seriously enrique should just get lost man.
even if you're taking pictures must you keep getting my[and other people's] way.
and you screwed up the 1 and only dance i had onstage.
don't offer to lead if you can't and make it all so disgusting.
kinda kena molested by j & e.
seriously just eff off man and don't try me!=.=
but even so out of all this that's happened.
weishi and i got closer with the cab rides=D
brent taught me bowling=D
really wish i can be there for the next program.
i really need a break.

am i really such a terrible person/friend.
why.
you hurt me again and again.
backstab me again and again.
say such untrue stuff.
stop putting up that fake and act-cute front.
you've changed so much.
i'm really starting to wish i don't have anything to do with you.
i don't wish to go back anymore.

why isit so hard to get love and connection.
you don't even try.
its takes two hands to clap.
i'm so tired.
i don't feel love at all anymore.
i wish i can start all over again.
i wish i had a heart of stone.
so i won't feel anything anymore.
so i won't feel like crying anymore.

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maybe i'm just such an asshole.
all i can say is i'm sorry.

hi y'all!=D

Thursday, November 22, 2007

sitting in tutorial room having comms skills now=.=
feeling like shit with flu/blocked nose/sore throat and probably fever=.=
the last yc[mdis] was a killer for many of us i believe.
the kids nowadays have such good life=.=
do we have teabreak?
got to know deejay[brent's friend cum movie producer]=D
along with a few new PTs=D
kinda got to know weishi better with all the mrt rides.
was late for EU on all 3 days at hometeam.
assisted the donkeys this time.
had people who're noticed again.
jerome[the giant]/lag 5secs guy/smile[ismail] for his dancing/[nerdy-good-looking]malay guy
can't really comment much on the programme itself cause wasn't really there.
some powerful virus was going around the room.
practically everyone was sneezing or/and coughing.
everytime i walked into the room i'll cough or sneeze=.=
had an interesting time with ju and bw outside and taki joined us.
so today's my rest day before the next EU[tomorrow]=D
deejay's probably back in australia already.
heard this guy called nick is flying over today from philippines.
can't make it for the next 2 ycs due to camp and CTs.
the last programme would be EU near christmas=D

mummy-daughter day=D

Sunday, November 18, 2007

yesterday was a really good day=D
met mummy joan in the morning at macs=D
i was late but she was doing some last min stuff.
went to walk around up and down in tm.
we talked and she left for church[emerge].
nu er lisbeth came after i rotted away.
hahaha.
wanted to watch a movie but all too late.
decided to walk around and did window shopping.
had lunch together at delifrance bistro.
she took so long to decide.
finally i decided for her also.
hahaha.
we went to pierce our near-tip of our ears.
same side and same colour also=D
went to walk around some more.
almost got banged down by the bus while going home.
hahaha.
finished copying maths notes and homework=D
just found out java hw like no diff from the previous.
wheee~...!=D

seriously i don't see the point in it anymore.
you all seem so happy anyway.
i don't care about it anymore.
sometimes you can just leave me alone.
i'm fine with it.
really.

warningwarningwarning=.=

Friday, November 16, 2007

need to do catching up for java like seriously man.
this morning was a rather interesting one.
was on my way to school on the crowded train.
this guy's bag was closs enough that my earpieces' wire got hooked!=.=
another guy on the other side saw and just stare at the whole picture.
then he promptly got of at the next station!=.=
as the train got even more crowded i was stuck in a terribly uncomfortable position.
i was leaning to my left and right in really awkward positions=.=
finally when i was about to ask the guy to let me remove the wire.
guy on my left saw the wire and [thank God] removed it!=D
i quickly collected the wire and hurriedly left got off.
be careful if your earpieces' wire is too long cause you never know what'll happen...
next i saw this lady who really impressed me.
her son was attracting unwanted attention[playing with his 1.5l water] and yet she was still so patient.
she talked to him so peacefully that i probably couldn't.
school was usual but had this lab thing for dmd.
to prepare for lab test for dmd tomorrow.
met esther and went for cell and waited for CL and wk.
thrashed stuff out since it was just the 4 of us.

if you have already said that.
i've long not wanted to go.
so sick of pretending already.
that nothing's wrong.
i've long forgotten who i am.
you think i like having so many problems.
with the people around me.
all this never existed before.
you don't understand anything.
i just want to forget all this and start again.
perhaps to leave for australia.
even if its now.

stardust

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

been awhile since i last posted yet again.
went to watch stardust with lisbeth on the 7th.
very recommended by me to watch.
yc held at mdis killed me yet again.
yups i'm sick again.down with the usual.
i really really hate java programming.
vb programming is so much better lor=.=
wish i can be sick enough to not go to school.
innocence is really very precious.
how did we all lose that precious gift.

i'm just going with the flow.
don't know what i believe in anymore.
slowly i'm disappearing.
wonder what'll happen.
wish i can drown everything.

pieces

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

nothing much happening.

anyway not many people'll actually read this.

oh wells.hahaha.

1st yc for november's round the corner.

debating whether to go on sunday.

it'll be a great escapade for me.

the 1st eu's during the weekdays=.=

poly has like a super screwed holiday la.

can't go for holiday with my family at bali=.=

been thinking alot recently.

had a second spiritual attack.

its always easier to say something then to put it into action.

do you always practise what you preach.

people don't care how much you know till they know how much you care.

its quite true don't you think?

wish i didn't care so much ever so often.

looking at how the others are.

why isit just me.

its really so tiring and i wish i was unfeeling.

mccafe=D

Sunday, November 04, 2007

saturday
went for the RCS treetop walk.
the walk was a real work-out for me since i don't know when.
the kids are not that bad afterall.
took tons of photos along the way.
not of me but of the nature reserve la.
cabbed home after the whole thing ended.
rested for awhile and left to meet lisbeth=D
was super late and i met wenqi.
ended up going for bk and i got my caramel frappe.
sat at bk and ate and i got my cheese cake-y=D
we had a good talk and was shocked=.=
went back for x!change after getting bubble tea for lydia.
sat with lis/cheryl/lydia but lydia let amanda have her seat.
was super sleepy so i distracted myself by doodling on the table.
went for supper:lis/manda/kelton/ong/wk/jl/cho.
saw alot of people mugging for As at maccafe.
talked about randoms and kelton drew me.
was super high and happy for some reason[4pkts of sugar?]=D
walked with lisbeth and talked and cabbed home.

sunday
kinda overslept and i keep waking up at the wrong time=.=
couldn't usher and and i bumped into geraldine.
sat together for service and was kinda stoning though.
signed up for camp though still kinda don't feel like going.
went for lunch with ong/wk and leonard joined us after that.
took the bus with wk and leonard.
caught up with sleep when i got home=D
right ankle suddenly started to ache[due to walk].
the weather is like screwed up.
glad dearest pb's better already=D

looking at you now.
i seriously don't think.
that this matters to you at all.

bleagh...

Thursday, November 01, 2007

wednesday
was so sleepy in maths=.=
was lost in tutorial=.=
had quiz early in lecture=.=
got back maths test.
i like computing maths=D
was supposed to go out with dearest.
she had workshop D:
some router thingy spoilt=.=
feeling super bored so was calling random people.
did something stupid.
was so pissed off that i picked a fight with my sis=.=
had a long talk with dearest.

thursday
quiz early in the morning=.=
so sleepy during comms skills.
went to elp to print maths notes.
thought dmd in tutorial room.
climbed up and down=.=
dmd was taught by the other teacher so better.
dad got me the portable hard disk.

in my friendships i give my best.
what do i mean to you.
after all this time.
i realized.
that i can't think of anything you did for me.
all along you've just treated me as a spare tyre.
only finding me when you are alone.
when no guys gave you attention.
you've changed so much.
even when you backstabbed me.
hurt me time and again.
i chose to try again and again.
why.
i really don't understand.