Simply Vintage :D

dinner-ed.mei's spaghetti was okie.i became the orange scientist.like what the...oh wells.

hmmz.guess i think too much and more often than not i let my emotions take control.soemtimes i just can't help it.i didn't really mean to emotionally blackmail anyone.i'm sorry if i've done that to you.i can't even seem to say anything right.just want to get to know you.don't think you'll see this.its jsut as well?feel so dry.don't know what i'm doing anymore.i still love god.but he just seem so not there?thought i was back on track after camp but its like i'm still dry.there seems to be this hollow spot in me.i really miss having god in the centre of my life.i'm really excited about strings.but remembering my dry-ness i just feel so unworthy to serve him that day.or even to invite anyone.i don't know.

STRINGS
i really want that to be the most important thing in my life now.GOD.saving 1 more for him.nothing else.

father lord i prayer that you'll teach me to surrender my life to you and that you'll once again take the conrol wheel in my life.i know with you i can do all things.so i pray that you'll once again be in the centre of my life and that nothing can ever move you away from that place in my life.i've decided to follow you and i'm not going to turn back now.no matter what happens you have been there so faithfully for me.i'm so unworthy and yet you have done it.you were nailed onto the cross.just for me.i'm not turning back just cause of this temptation.so father lord i pray that you'll give me strength and help me perservere through all this.amen.