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this end?

well this is it.the end of 2006.did quite a few things but i guess saturday was inevitable.

saturday.
there was just so much finality to that day.1st time that my saturday was just filled with so much 'i wish'.well.it came and went.had sec 4 graduation party.somehow it didn't strike me earlier but going for the party somehow just made leaving megalife even more real.truthfully.i have no idea where i want to go.jc or poly.perhaps i'm really leaving megalife.somehow somewhere in me clings onto it so badly.megalife has too many memories for me.i'm just not ready to let go.well.thats me.the many friendships that i have built.my ministry.my cell.my leader.so many things.going to highlife seemed so distant before.but somehow it just came to fast.like a delicious treat dangling in front of me and taken away just before my fingers could just close around it.felt like crying but somehow it seemed to be just stoppled deep in me.wanting to burst forth but somewhat unable to.many 'lasts' happened that day.last time i was a megalifer.last ushering duty.last area gathering.last time being part of sac cell.last time having shiwei as my ao.last time with eli being my leader.the list goes on.i don't know how i am going to adjust with the change of leaders.i know i'll miss eli so much.but like what she said.though she's not my leader she is still my friend.i guess that even with so many 'lasts' i still thank GOD that they were there to become my 'lasts'

there are certain regrets as i move on.well.who doesn't.i never got around to getting over certain stuff.its still there.i know GOD is there.so just waiting for him.pray that i'll just remember to continue to seek him in all i do in this year with so many beginnings awaiting me.